“There is no shortcut to perfection. All it takes is hard work, and more hard work” - Kim Jonghyun.
I don’t know where to start from. I will never be able to express my feelings in words but I’m gonna try my best. Happy birthday. You’re 22 now… and you don’t even look/behave like that. I wish you happiness, a lot of new clothes (baby, you need them), health and everything you’ll ever wish for. You deserve the best. I wish you’ll find your love (hope it’ll be me… no ok I’m kidding). You deserve it more than anyone else, the thing I want the most is you to be happy. I wish you’ll always keep that amazing smile on your face and won’t let anyone bring it down from them. Keep being that amazing, wonderful, caring, funny, sensitive, talkative, shy, stupid, happy person you are and don’t ever change, because it’s the combination of everything that makes you special, that makes you who you are, that makes everyone to love you so much. You might act a little ‘cold’ to people but we all know how big and warm heart you have there. We can see it here and here. How caring person you are towards the people you love. I hope you’ll keep writing amazing lyrics and singing, that’s what you do the best. I don’t think you realize how much impact you leave on people when you start singing. Your voice… is something more than amazing for me. When you open your mouth, you leave me breathless, speechless. Your voice makes me smile, cry, everything. That’s how amazing it is. You always work hard on your voice, you work hard to get better and better, and you do it great. I know that if people let you the chance to improve even more, because you can, and we all know it’s not you’re best and you can do much more, you will take that chance and do you’re best. You’re pretty much everything for me, I wish you could know. I wish you could know how SHINee and you literally saved me from becoming a miserable, unhappy person I could’ve become. I wish you could know how much you mean to me, how much things you ‘did’ for me, even though you didn’t actually do it for me. I wish you could know how much you helped and still helping me, how huge is the influence you have on me. Thank you for all of this, thank you for existing and being youself. I love every single thing about you- your smile, your voice, your eyes, your lips, your tongue, your cute nose (and nostrils ofc), your arms, your chest, your nipples, your body, your legs, your feet, your puppy look, your cute and sexy look, your shortness, even your obsession to dogs, every damn thing. There are some people who say you’re rude, I don’t think so, and I don’t even have the right to say so since I don’t actually know you. But… they also don’t have the right to say you’re rude. I don’t think you’re perfect, you’re a human, which people might forget about sometimes, but you also have your moods, thoughts, regrets, needs, feelings, just like us. You’re an amazing human-being, and that is what important to me, you know? Even though you’re an idol and you’re clearly not like me or other fans, you’re keeping your humanity and that is amazing for me, so inspiring. That what being idol is about. You’re so precious, Jonghyun. The way you care about your fans, you might not know to express your feelings that well… but, writing songs for us… it’s enough for me to know how much you appreciate and love us, it makes my heart beat faster. YOU make my heart beat fast. Whenever you smile, I smile. Whenever you cry, I cry. Whenever you laugh, I laugh. Whenever I’m sad- I listen to your voice, it’s my shelter, you know? my safe place. It actually makes me feel better, makes me stay calm and sane. I always wonder, how do you do that? how can a person influence on me like the way you do? how can a person control my feelings, my thoughts, my life, the way you do? But you worth it, you worth everything. You mean a lot to me, Kim Jonghyun. You inspire me. My first wish for you, and for your whole year and life, is to be happy. You’re still young, aren’t you? (look who talks… lol) but you still have many things to go through, you have your entire life in front of you, right? So be strong, I know you are. Don’t let people the chance to break you down, you’re more than this. Well, I feel like this whole letter is getting too emotional, so… yeah. I know you’ll never read this, but it felt good pouring my heart, although this post is not half of the way I feel, and of course I started crying lol. I love you so much, Kim Jonghyun. Happy Birthday.
